eeny meeny miiny mo??

When do I weigh in?? I haven't had a look on the scales for a few days and that is weird for me! I am not near my 66.2 where I was after my dreaded cold (dam) but Im not in the 68's either??? I don't think. Im seriously considering doing the right thing and counting points and doing my exercises again, but Im struggling to do this?? Why??? I don't know?

Im sorta OK with how Im going weight wise, although Im untoned and now unfit...(fuck it).but I look not to bad, not like 14kilos heavier ago anyway. Im trying to monitor what goes in and not eat tooooo much of anything, I still eat choccy each week but just not a whole block in one sitting!! Although I still could ya know:)

I bought some new clothes and instead of being XL, I now can buy M, I even bought a size 10 singlet top to and that was great! So what if it is a big make!!

I have to take a photo, I haven't done one in my bikinis for over a month, but I don't think there is much change, allllll my readers can decide!!! haha, Im joking. My 8 readers per day can decide!!

Love you all:) hehe

nite.nite.

Weigh in in the morning

Well I weighed in today, ok ok I weigh everyday, but I was 66.3!!! woohoo, that is a loss of 1.5 for the week, but I have been a bit off with a cold so I really can't take this week as real, cause Im not eating well and I just feel its fake, but even so I guess thats part of the journey..so if I go up next week well so be it!

1.3 from 65kilos, such a great feeling tho, I really can't remember when I was last that weight, I know I was around 64-65 at 18/19yo maybe, gosh to long ago. My shape has changed of course after having babies, Ive spread out in the hip area, widened, even tho I have heard people say that 'your hips are you hips' mine are definatly wider since having children and I know my body so there!!!

But you know what,I still feel fat and big and huge and the big girl. I wonder if that ever goes away? I know Im not fat, I was at 80kilos, but I still feel big, I can't accept people at work telling me how thin I look, and don't get me wrong, Im not saying that to show off or anything, but I just can't see it? Anyway I guess thats just years of accepting fat and being fat, and always being the 'big' girl.

Will it ever go?


I think not..

200grams!!!!!!!!

Oh man, Im 67.1kilos....soooo close t 66 its not funny!!!!!!! Grrrrrr, had a pretty good day food wise...

Toast+Avocado
Coffee
Jarrah Hot choc
Sushi
Pumpkin soup..(with cream tho)
Chicken strip chilli thingys and salad. (not a great choice either)

B4 bed tonight, Im am doing
sit ups
arm weights
squats
and push ups.

I have neglected exercise for too long, I really need to tone, as I have said many times before, but I have to do it, there is no excuse..

Im going to make sure I do heaps of incedental excerise too.

Im sure I will lose this last few kilos...

Claytons Weigh in

Weighing in but not weighing in..if that is possible? 67.6 this morning. Good, am I getting out of the 68's for sure???? Won't know til Thursday when I weigh in for real?

To be honest I will be happy to stay around this weight for a little while anyway, then move down to the 66's, scary...2 weeks till hubby gets back and his parents are coming to visit, wouldn't it be nice to be in the 66's?? Hopefully I will start work very shortly, hairdressers rarely get breaks so it will be good to eat things that are healthy on the run, fruit, vegie sticks, maybe yoghurt ect?? I'll drop the weight for sure, #1 cause Im out working fulltime and #2 no real sit down and eat time!!

Bring it on

Dayam, I might just end up skinny after all??

hehe, one can hope yes?

Dam

Such an up and down day, Ive eaten all the wrong things today with nerves Im sure, no worries, Im weighing in on Wednesday so I have a few days to salvage my 67's!!

My throat is still a little sore but nothing to bad. I am loving cheese at the moment which isn't good considering it is high in Sat Fat, shame, shame....Im going to substitute a few meals with shakes on Sunday and Monday, cause I don't need to go anywhere and I love how they flatten out your tummy a little,(as far as mine can flatten of course, you now what I mean anyway!) probably less bloated without food. I reckon I will strip the weight once and for all when I start work as I will not be able to eat every minute I am bored, I will be working, so all will be good, 65 is close, but still far away if that makes sense?

scales???

Don't really like the scales, I was meant to weigh in yesterday, I didn't, I chickened out, but I am going to weigh in this morning, I am 68kilos on the dot, so close to being under those stupid 68's its not funny, I will work really hard this week to be 67.? for next Sunday. I hate yo yoing all the time. I hate weighing all the time, I love the scales going down and I hate them going up. I will stick to Sunday weigh in for now, because now I have a number to work on that is pleasing. Tomorow I will not weigh in, in fact I will not weigh myself till next Sunday. A small challenge that I have never been able to win, but I will try this week.

I also want to get back into the weights this week and incidental exercise. Walking and moving a lot more. I haven't been wearing my pedo lately, so that will be clipped back on.

Lets see if I can finally get to my goal weight?

All is well

awwww, not as bad as I thought?????? Still a small gain, but Im still those stoopid 68's, but Im still gonna have a pass.

I think I really do like the way the shakes work with weightloss, but I know its not long term....I wonder if I committed to shakes for 2 weeks, what would happen?? Im hopeless at committing to anything so, I'll just go with the flow for now.

I have chocolate this week, and high sat fat, so I have to rectify this for the next week:)

I need to focus on exercise this week coming, cause my problem areas need toning, but Ive been saying that FOREVER, so I can either do 1 of 2 things

1-keep complaining about and carry on like I did in the start of this journey

OR

2- get moving and make myself proud again and prove to everyone I am not a flighty try hard weightlosser...

I like option #2

Have a great weekend:)

500grams!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh No!!!!!I bloody new it tho!!! So Im still in the stupid 68's....68.6 to be exact, Ok so I went wrong this week by not exercising enough, so my mission this week is to MOVE, I need to get on that treadmill. Why isn't the weight coming off like it did when I was a real fattyy!!!!!!! Arrrgggggghhhhhhhhh....SO FRUSTRATING.

Anyway, onto another week:) put it past meself and keep going:)

My goals
#1-67kilos- belly piercing, yeah Ive wanted this done sine I was 74kilos, I actually went into the shop in town that does it and explained to the man that I was in the 'process' of losing weight and asked if I could get it done then or wait til I was a little smaller, and he said wait til I was smaller!!lol now, but I was a little embarasses at the time!

#2-66kilos-New outfit. Im pledging not to buy one piece of clothing again til that time:)

#3-65-Happiness.

Oh and Im not taking anymore photos till I hit those goals either.

Weigh in day!

22nd Jan 08

9th Feb 08

At least its a loss, 900grams this week, so Im 68.1kilos now. Oh the frustration of the same shape, I can see I need some professional training help and Im sure they could whip my shape around to a more toned look, but alas, I can't afford the money or the time for the gym. well, yes the time I could I guess, but I'll just have to persevere at home. I love bike riding, but hubby is going away for work tomorow, so I will have to put my bike on the trainer and I hate that! It is boring and just drowns on and on...

Im not having a free day today, Ive had different treats through the week and I will just keep going!

Food today

Coffee

cereal

fruit

??

My measurements haven't changed much either

Bust-93cm, minus 1cm

Waist-83cm, minus 1cm

Hips-101cms, same

5.1kilos to go!!!

Im aiming for 63kilos:)

Facing the music in the morning...

Well Im facing the scales in the morning, I know I will have a bloody gain, but really lots has been happening and Ive been off a little....no excuse I know, but anyway.

Ive just been reading a few of my bloggerery bloggers and hell, some are going off in the weights and gym department!!! Really all I need to do if I feel like slipping is read them! Motivation plus!! Lovin it:)

We went for a ride this arvo and it really killed us both! I couldn't push my legs at ALL..I only burned 157cals, but it is better than nothing. We had Maccas for lunch..I KNOW!!!! terrible huh! Well I hadn't had burgers for ages so thats my excuse and Im sticking to it:)

I made Sushi for dinner, my new absolute LOVE, I can't believe I hated it so much before..hmmm silly!

Biggest Loser has started tonight and I love it to!! Lots of love tonight, which is a nice change thats for sure!!! Shannon is sooooo soooooo hot, I love him and his arms and his body and his voive and his...oh the list is endless, if I was younger and in Sydney I would have to chase him down!!!

Well til tomorow, Im not telling you all my weight and Im not taking photos, cause I look the same and theres no point showing off the same thing over and over again, but I will say I went to the beach today and didn't wear my bikini top...not good...