eeny meeny miiny mo??

When do I weigh in?? I haven't had a look on the scales for a few days and that is weird for me! I am not near my 66.2 where I was after my dreaded cold (dam) but Im not in the 68's either??? I don't think. Im seriously considering doing the right thing and counting points and doing my exercises again, but Im struggling to do this?? Why??? I don't know?

Im sorta OK with how Im going weight wise, although Im untoned and now unfit...(fuck it).but I look not to bad, not like 14kilos heavier ago anyway. Im trying to monitor what goes in and not eat tooooo much of anything, I still eat choccy each week but just not a whole block in one sitting!! Although I still could ya know:)

I bought some new clothes and instead of being XL, I now can buy M, I even bought a size 10 singlet top to and that was great! So what if it is a big make!!

I have to take a photo, I haven't done one in my bikinis for over a month, but I don't think there is much change, allllll my readers can decide!!! haha, Im joking. My 8 readers per day can decide!!

Love you all:) hehe

nite.nite.

Weigh in in the morning

Well I weighed in today, ok ok I weigh everyday, but I was 66.3!!! woohoo, that is a loss of 1.5 for the week, but I have been a bit off with a cold so I really can't take this week as real, cause Im not eating well and I just feel its fake, but even so I guess thats part of the journey..so if I go up next week well so be it!

1.3 from 65kilos, such a great feeling tho, I really can't remember when I was last that weight, I know I was around 64-65 at 18/19yo maybe, gosh to long ago. My shape has changed of course after having babies, Ive spread out in the hip area, widened, even tho I have heard people say that 'your hips are you hips' mine are definatly wider since having children and I know my body so there!!!

But you know what,I still feel fat and big and huge and the big girl. I wonder if that ever goes away? I know Im not fat, I was at 80kilos, but I still feel big, I can't accept people at work telling me how thin I look, and don't get me wrong, Im not saying that to show off or anything, but I just can't see it? Anyway I guess thats just years of accepting fat and being fat, and always being the 'big' girl.

Will it ever go?


I think not..

So close

So close but still so far away! Ivecome to the realization that Im almost at my ideal weight, well nearly, all my old clothes are bigger than they have ever been, but Im still not a neat size 12, Im putting it down to the fact that Im tall? I know people that are around 70kilos and they are a size 12, nup, not me, Im about a 13, but there is no such size, so 14 it is? Some 12's but mostly 14, least Im out of my 16-18...ewww

So this morning I loved the scales, 66.8 and thats only 1.8 off 65, so close I tell ya..but that will go up cause Im unwell with no appitite, so no food is tasting worthwhile, love it tho, I only have a sore throat and Im greatfull Im not sick sick, but anyway..not hungry and thats the main thing eh?

I still hate my tummy, but Im really the only one who sees it naked and my hubby doesn't count! but i accept it so im getting better! if i was all obsessed with fitness like in the past i could improve it no doubt a little but im not so i accept the consequences.

arghhhh

Not good, Im fat and lazy at the moment...I can't get back on track for some reason, I have everyone around me telling me how thin I look, and I don't say this to sound up myself, but I have become complacent and lazy!! And I reckon its the same old thing, I see the results on the scales and I slacken off, I have done this on my entire journey, one step forward and 3 steps back, I didn't weigh myself this morning, but I can tell you it will be no where near 67.1, try 68.4 is my estimate. Im a fuckwit and need to get with the program again...