The fight is ON

Fighting to keep this weight off, but unfortunatly I am loooooosssssingggggggg...aaarrrgggghhh, why do we have to eat????? Im eating just enough not to be hungry, Im still a tad queasy at the thought of food, but Im surviving....but, I am 66.5 now, I can't put anymore on, I am soooo bloody close to my elusive 65kilos!!!!! I am still dehydrated, to be crude, my wee is still yellow!! And I never need to go!! Need to drink 3 more litres and it should be OK!!lol

My Husband has never seen me this thin and that in itself is great, he came home this weekend and said I was skinny, (finally) flabby, but thin, I have never been any less than 72kilos with him until I embarked on this journey of course. Then my son (14) says his friends think I am a MILF!!!!!! Holy fat chick, isn't that a compliment:) Well for me it is:) Last time I was 66kilos, I think I was around 20?? Sumthing like that, young anyway.

Now that Im about to start work I will be able to pack nothing but healthy snacks, friut, crackers, light cheese, water and salad for lunch, can't wait, I actually can't wait to get thinner..(in a healthy way, you know what Im saying) I really have to set a weight routine up cause I have no tone and that is ugly..I realize we need both cardio and weights, but not liking the cardio atm...not good I know, heart health and all..

We went for a bike ride yesterday and I must say, I was buggered! Haven't been for a while! But it was good, really had to push cause Im still a little washed out after being unwell...pheww

I will weigh in on Thursday I think, b4 Easter! Luuurrrrvvvvv choccy and plan the Easter Bunny to bring me sumthink scrummy:)

Going down!

67.4 this morning, Im racing to get to the 66's!! If I stay well behaved I might just get there this week coming?


I am no longer classing myself as a fatty, I am just untoned is all, Im not a size 12, but size is irrelevant, I am tall so I can't expect to be a size 10 really.

I found the plug thing that goes in my fitball so I can blow it up again, better for situps and push ups.

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It was all wrong, and Ive gone over in points...surprise surprise for the fatty!!!lol
Im blaming hormones, I can right?? Ha! Back into it tomorow, being outta the house and all for the day, so easy for me to keep on track when Im not bored shitless at home..Im a bored housewife...very bored.

I am really tired today and I get a headache everyday cause of the heat...yuck...I actually tried to have a lie down on the lounge, but as usual, the minute I relax the bloody phone rings, this is why I don't rest during the day.. that happens EVERY time I try and rest, go figure, mothers are not meant to stop during the day!!!

I hate exercise again. it didn't take much hey, those who know my history, of weightloss and gain...I HATE it with a passion, if I loved it like I hate it I would be one fit woman:) I love bikeriding tho, but with hubby away I can't go out and ride...he is back for the weekend and first on the list is a ride!!!!! I can't wait. I have realized I have not done anything for 3 weeks, just the odd weights and sit ups and push ups, is it any wonder I am stuck at the weight I am??? Ummm NO. Move and ye shall lose weight:)

I know this shit, so I refuse to complain and hate on my fat self. I am armed with all the info I need so go forth fat ass and do it:)...*smiles*

Great day!!

Food today

Toast and egg, coffee
salad and lentil patty
vegies and salmon patty:) (go the patties this week!)

Haven't had much today but I had Tafe so I don't eat a great deal cause Im too busy and engrossed!!

Exercise
weights
sit ups
sqauts
push ups.

Im trying to do as much incedental as I can too:)

2 kilo countdown continues:)

Day one-it begins

Day one is under way!
Food
cereal and coffee =3
banana=1
Toasted tuna, cheese, lettuce, onion and BBQ sauce sammich=6
vegies and lentil patties =4
Coffee-1
I'll be counting WW points..yeah I know boring, but it works!! So far Im up to 15, 3points to go!! I reckon Im on 18 points now, haven't go the luxury of breastfeeding and I was on 26points...yowzazzz, but I still lost weight. I haven't been on the tready yet, man it is proving to be a hard thing to get back on, but I will do my weights and other stuff after dinner..(i hope:))???


Exercise
sit ups
squats
push ups
arm weights
walk.

Will check in at end of day to make sure I did everything and ate what I should have.

Im raring to go and really want to lose 1kilo this week??????/ All I can do is try my hrdest and go from there, I know this is a lifestyle change and its a long road but I know I will get there eventually and get to a weight that Im happy with?? So what if my tummy is flabby, I have cellulite, and Im not toned like a body builder? Is it really the end of the world? No, not really. Im not doing this to compete in a title, or to snag me a new man!! Im doing this for myself and I have an image in my head of what I want and all I can do is strive to do the best I can:)

2 week challenge

I just went thru this on other blog but this is where I'll keep a check on myself

2 weeks to lose between 1.5 and 2kilos???

How I will do this
1- eat healthy
2- maybe have a few shakes to replace a few dinners
3-I think I will take my Xantrax on Tafe days so I don't get as hungry to
4- treadmill
5-water, and lots of it

So are you with me peoples??? I need all the support I can get, Ive lost the plot a little with this weightloss thing of late!! But Im determined to be thinner when my husband gets back!!

So the scales are heading down again. Thank fuck! I am 400grams off what I was 2 weeks ago and Im happy with that, notice Im not telling anyone what I weigh or how much Im losing???? Not sure if thats a good thing or bad???? hehehe. I have had a coffee and a cupcake all day so far and after the cupcake I felt sick, so serves meself right, that is NOT the right food to have...Shake for lunch and chicken strifry for dinner...all gooD

Exercise for the day
bike ride
arm weights
sit ups
squats
push ups.

I would really love to go to the gym and get a weight regime happening but that ain't gonna happen..shame hey! No matter, I will do what I can at home and Im sure thats better than nothing!

Saturday NOT weigh in

Well I didn't weigh in this morning, Ive stepped back a bit on my whole obsession with the scales and the food and the diary I keep documenting everything, Ive been good and Im still riding, but I need to get remotivated a bit more, Ive had some stuff to deal with lately, but I think Im under control again.

I did a bike ride and a walk yesterday followed by weights and sit ups and squats, I burned about 350cals..(I think from memory, I can't be bothered to get my book!!) And Im riding this arvo after dinner. (we eat at 5.30pm cause of the little ones!)

So I will weigh in on Monday?? Not sure, when ever I feel like it I think!

Im not counting points or doing Cal King, or shakes or Xantrax, nuthin, I need to find a regime that is new and refreshing cause Ive gone a bit stale, with exercise to, I love riding so that is a start. Im over the treadmill just for the moment,which is a shame, but no doubt I'll get back into it once I settle all down again.

Not good

oh dear, a slip, losing a child to 'big school' and tom isn't doing very well for my diet today!! Ive eaten a few badies today...and NO bike ride,,Im annoyed about that the most, thats for sure, I will be going in the morning, with or without the husband. He gets a bit lazy sometimes and then other times he's all for it and pushing me out the door, can't keep up!!

Isn't it amazing how you can go great guns and then BANG, something just slips and you fall back, dare I say 'off the wagon', man, I have said it before, Im so sick of this battle, its so easy in theory, eat healthy clean food, nothing processed, or out of a packet, drink plenty of water, blah fucking blah, sick of hearing it, sick of reading it, yada yada yada!! Ive finished the Susan Powter book, well nearly and she has some valid points maybe, Im yet to try them, but the thought of eating heaps of the good stuff even raises red flags to me?? She is telling me to work at my intensity level and everything will just 'follow' hmmm, im undecided on that one to, I would think I would need to go like a bat outta hell and work up a huge sweat to make a difference. Ive done that and thats when I found some shape in this body of mine!!

She also says enjoy the 'process', hmm again, not liking that point, I don't want to know myself fat and unfit, but I do regret not taking a photo in my bikini at 81kilos!! Imagine that!

oh I wish I wish I wish I hadda!! I think that's what she means tho, embrace the changes and really revell in them, like really remember when you were at your heaviest and remember you don't want to be there again? I know I certainly won't ever be 80+kilos again.

They say you need to visualize yourself where you want to be, hmm again, Im having trouble with this one, I want to see myself thin and slim and no tummy, another thing she mentions that I enjoyed reading, the stomach- she says, (Susan), that of course you can train the muscles underneath, but you need to lose all the fat before you can see them, well yes I realize this, but she says..I'll just go and find it...

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that stuff hanging off your stomach is fat. The only thing that is going to burn that fat off your stomach and the rest of your body is aerobic activity. It will burn off- ..there is no way on earth that you will sill have fat hanging from your stomach at 15, 17, 19- 20% body fat, have increased your lean muscle mass and are lean and strong and healthy. Think about it. Are you going to be lean everywhere but your stomach? Nope, not possible. It will burn off your stomach just the way it burns off everywhere else.

So that was from her book and yes I have some hope that she is telling the truth, but that flies out the window when I eat crap and then feel sorry for myself, this I find pathetic, so I will put it behind me and move forward and concentrate on the new day in the morning and keep going just as everyone else has to:)

the end *poking tounge!*hehe

my baby is off to school!!!

Well my second littleist baby is off, she is so excited and all ready to go!! How exciting, I will only have one more at home!!!! yayayayayayayayayayayayay!!lol
Bag is packed, lunch is packed and we are waiting to leave, well in about an hours time!!! Can't wait, she was nervous last night and couldn't get to sleep but she managed ok!!

So not much else at the moment, teenager is back and causing trouble all ready, little shit pierced his ear and we have told him to take it out, but he is so disrespectful he is refusing, makes me sick and Ive really had enough, oh well, such is life with a teenager!

So we didn't get top go ridering yesterday, hubby was away for a bloody 6hour ride, he didn't mean to go for that long(???) so we are going today and it will be without Mikayla!! Weird! I guess it will take a bit to get used to, but I will!!

So everything is still crossed for the job, I really hope she can accomodate me with the hours, just for a while, would be nice, not that I really want to be a shit kicking apprentice, but I guess ya gotta do what ya gotta do!!! hope hope hope!!!! maybe its my turn??????????

Bike ridering!!

Bike riding is my new thing!!! We went for 2 rides yesterday, the first one was 25mins and I only burned 113 cals, better than nothing I reckon, but the 2nd one, later in the arvo, after the big lunch!! was 50mins and I burned 256cals. That was a lot better and we are going to do it again today. I like bike riding so much better than the tready to, its getting a tad boring!!

So today is a light day food wise and Im having shakes for a little booster instead of food, every second day or so, jump start again cause I seem to be stuck in between 67 and 69kilos at the moment and that has to change!!

Im just making little changes here and there to shake things up as it were, hence the new blog and stuff.

Im a lot more positve and I think that really is the key to success.

I really hope I hear from the Manager this week coming cause I would really love that job?????

Cross everything and then cross it again!!

OK, we did a 45min ride and I burnt 311 cals, thats awesome:)

All I have left now todo is sit ups, squats and weights, I will do them tonight. Shake for dinner as we had lovely prawn sammiches for lunch. YUM...

Im off to get Nic from the train now....